You have to start realizing that if you already have this "crutch" and it is taken from you because you choose trucking over weed, you're just gonna find another crutch.
You will have a lot of time on your hands, not always pleasant, but time to think, time you are away, time you are unhappy... time you will want to get away from it all.
If it ain't weed, it will be something. Not a good way to get started in this industry. Doesn't matter what you get away with... until.....
and I wouldn't even be that worried about the random. If you hadn't killed that crutch or found a way around the testing procedure out of sheer motivation.. . you still have to think about that accident.
High or not high, they will dig through you like they are doing an autopsy.
Find a way to drive, if you REALLY love trucks and trucking, that you can work straight, otherwise, Id' say find something else to do.
A lot of guys drink at night when the truck is parked, That may work for a while, but after time they have to use even more self-control when drinking becomes "second-nature" to them.
I've seen way too many things out on the road, or experienced the repercussions of them through watching my friends make bad choices out on the road.
It can't last forever.
You reap what you sow. If you really love trucks, you will enjoy what you do with just some good coffee....and no cigarettes.
Not judging, just sharing what I've seen out here over the last 35 years.
So many damn health issues out here even with truckers who dont seem to have any crutches...